KANO CATCH-ALL I'M SAD

[robopriest]

I'M SO SAD

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[suddenlybees]

Things can only get better, when you're at rock bottom, huh?

[ Logically, he knows all of this. That if he just hangs in there, things have to get better— they've got to get better- they just have to, even if he's been hanging on for five, ten years already and he's just so tired.

He's so, so sick and tired of existing. ]

Is it so bad to want to go home, and be with the people you love? [ More so than anybody else he'll ever find, he wants to be with the people he's already lost. Whether that's in heaven or in hell, he will be able to see them again, such is the afterlife he believes in. ]

[robopriest]

Its not like that.

[He says, his tone bordering on chiding. Its not about rock bottom, and then climbing up. What a defeating way to think of everything. Like life is just a struggle.]

[But that's how Kano sees the world, isn't it? After everything he's been through...]

It...it isn't. [Replies Hansa, quietly.] It's not bad at all to miss them. That makes you human. But they're in a different place, now. You don't belong there, with the life you have yet to live, you know? You can do a lot of good as you are now, for the people you care about here. Not there.

[suddenlybees]

[ Life is the pits and God is out to get him all the time, so what is even the point? ]

I get what you're saying, but... You're talkin' to a guy on death row, here, you know? What good can I even do now? I'm out of time...

[robopriest]

...

[It's true. Its not like his words are going to matter much in the long run. Just nice things for a priest to say to a kid who's one foot in the grave. And yet...]

There's a chance you won't actually go anywhere. "Removed" can mean many things. Sure, it might look real to us, but...

[It might be an illusion. Maybe they're all dreaming, and they're just waking up when the plug is pulled.]

Mm. Essentially...I wouldn't count your chances out just yet. But if it so happens that it is what it is...then may the good Lord see you on your way to your family as you wish.

[suddenlybees]

[ Dying but not disappearing... It's not impossible. It isn't even faith— it's fact, one that he knows has happened to many people over. His family... is not necessarily dead. They're just not here. ]

Maybe, if I'm lucky, I'm due for a pit stop somewhere tomorrow. I'll give that a shot. If not... I can escort myself to hell, thanks.

[robopriest]

You'd better give that a shot, Kano.

[And there's a sort of smirk on his face.]

Or else, I'll head over there somehow. I'll find a way, and when I do...well, I'll kick your ass. Got it?

[suddenlybees]

Yeah, yeah.

[ Him giving it a shot is him trying to murder Jeanne tomorrow, Hansa, please. ]

But if it's just the sweet oblivion of death that awaits me, I don't ever want to see your face ever again.

[ Don't you dare die too, Hansa. All these people telling Kano "We'll see each other again" and he's just "NO!!!!!" ]

[robopriest]

Haha. Well, I'm only human. Despite what my body is. I'll see the good Lord eventually.

[Yeah, Kano, ABOUT THAT ATTEMPTED MURDER THING]

[His smirk widens just a tad...before falling back into something more neutral. His dark blue eye stares down at Kano, as if to pin him here in place, like he would to a butterfly in a box.]

...Would you like me to pray for you, Kano?

[suddenlybees]

[ Look!!!! He had a Kagerou reason for the attempted murder u_u ]

No way. I don't want anything to do with God anymore. I'm through with Him.

[robopriest]

[what the hell is happening in kagerou]

...Hm. [He closes his eye briefly, nodding.] I see. What about your family? Do you want me to pray for them?

[suddenlybees]

[ Kano is a murderer actually ): ]

No. You tell God to leave me and my family alone.

[robopriest]

[this is the least surprising thing i have heard about kano honestly]

....Ha. [And he grins, that almost malicious grin, but its not directed really at Kano.] Is that so? Okay. Sure. But I hope that you can find your penance elsewhere, then. It would be a shame if you didn't.

[suddenlybees]

Yeah? I don't need anybody to absolve me of my sins. All the sins I've committed, I've had my reasons for them. I won't ask for forgiveness over things I don't regret.

[ He won't take any of it back, all the terrible horrible things that he's done, because they were all for the sake of an ends. And the ends justifies the means. ]

[robopriest]

Okay. That's your choice.

[And the grin recedes, but there's still an amused glimmer in his eye.]

What sins did you commit, may I ask?

[suddenlybees]

Um, hm. All the very worst ones? I'm, like, not supposed to talk about it.

[robopriest]

Sure. [Dryly.] Surprise me.

[suddenlybees]

Uh. No. See, if I talk about it, there'll be some dire consequences. The worst. Better not risk it.

[robopriest]

From who? Little ol' me?

[suddenlybees]

From Dad.

[robopriest]

...

[That answer surprises him.]

Kano. [He says, finally.] You're at death's door, like you said before. What could your dad do?

[suddenlybees]

A lot. Even something like me's got a family, you know? I'm not the only one who's gonna be affected by what I do.

[robopriest]

[He frowns.]

But I don't understand. You're here. Your family isn't here. What is your dad going to do, eavesdrop with his almighty powerful abilities of omniscience?

[suddenlybees]

[ He gives Hansa a look. Maybe his dad has almighty powerful abilities of omniscience. ]

[robopriest]

[>:/]

What is your dad, Kano?

[suddenlybees]

A high school teacher.