Hm. It is. The Lord offers comfort even in the darkest times. As long as one's faith is strong, and one's path is just, He will lead you out of dark forest and into the light.
[And he recites, like he's recited it a million times before:]
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me. Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
[A long pause.]
Unfortunately, the Lord does not offer any specific answers for "what to do when you're in the middle of this horrible mess and losing memories on top of it", but that's how it is.
It sounds nice, having something like that to believe in. [Almost wistful. He envies that faith, a bit. He certainly can't share it, because he's been dead. He knows what's beyond this life. But he's not going to say shit to Hansa and try to ruin his faith, because that's a level of mean he's not willing to travel to.]
Who knows, maybe we'll get lucky and on Monday we'll wake up having forgotten this week ever happened.
[He corrects, but its not meant as a jab, just as a gentle reaffirming of his own beliefs. Sure, maybe he's not as connected or devout as some of the others in the Church, but his body isn't the way it is without reason. His faith is in the way he's allowed himself to be changed, to elevate him to a level where he can perform the Lord's work with the power and ability it deserves.]
Haha. Though would that be a good thing? We need to take the bad memories with the good. It helps us learn from our mistakes.
[Sometimes you want to be dead a little but also you don't want to die and also now you can't bc you have too many responsibilities.]
Back when it first happened, Commandant Alexei actually gave me the means to turn it off, when I asked him to stop it. He wouldn't do it himself. [He made Raven take his life into his own hands, literally.]
Still... even though I agonized over it fer the longest time, I couldn't actually do it. Even then.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
[He's just staring into the water, pensive, eye flitting up to look at Raven before moving back to the water.]
...I understand. [A beat.] I knew where you were coming from. It's fine.
no subject
[Yet.]
But I do think you could stand ta handle the kids with a little more gentleness. I ain't apologizin' for that part.
no subject
[He just shakes his head, smiling to himself briefly.]
...I'm not going to coddle children, Raven. I'll treat them kindly, of course, but in situations like that...
[He falls silent for a moment.]
Anyways, what's done is done.
no subject
Yer religion any help when it comes to situations like this?
[Convert me, Daddy Hansa.]
no subject
Hm. It is. The Lord offers comfort even in the darkest times. As long as one's faith is strong, and one's path is just, He will lead you out of dark forest and into the light.
[And he recites, like he's recited it a million times before:]
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me. Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
[A long pause.]
Unfortunately, the Lord does not offer any specific answers for "what to do when you're in the middle of this horrible mess and losing memories on top of it", but that's how it is.
no subject
It sounds nice, having something like that to believe in.
[Almost wistful. He envies that faith, a bit. He certainly can't share it, because he's been dead. He knows what's beyond this life. But he's not going to say shit to Hansa and try to ruin his faith, because that's a level of mean he's not willing to travel to.]
Who knows, maybe we'll get lucky and on Monday we'll wake up having forgotten this week ever happened.
no subject
[He corrects, but its not meant as a jab, just as a gentle reaffirming of his own beliefs. Sure, maybe he's not as connected or devout as some of the others in the Church, but his body isn't the way it is without reason. His faith is in the way he's allowed himself to be changed, to elevate him to a level where he can perform the Lord's work with the power and ability it deserves.]
Haha. Though would that be a good thing? We need to take the bad memories with the good. It helps us learn from our mistakes.
no subject
I feel like I've had more than enough bad memories. Can't I lose a couple?
no subject
[He would make a smart remark to that, but he turns to Raven instead, his expression serious.]
Raven...at the end. What you said. Do you mean that?
no subject
[Mostly he's just stalling.]
no subject
You don't want to keep living, the way you are.
no subject
Well it sounds bad when ya put it like that.
[RAVEN IT IS BAD]
no subject
It is bad, Raven.
no subject
[Sometimes you want to be dead a little but also you don't want to die and also now you can't bc you have too many responsibilities.]
Back when it first happened, Commandant Alexei actually gave me the means to turn it off, when I asked him to stop it. He wouldn't do it himself. [He made Raven take his life into his own hands, literally.]
Still... even though I agonized over it fer the longest time, I couldn't actually do it. Even then.