[Sometimes you want to be dead a little but also you don't want to die and also now you can't bc you have too many responsibilities.]
Back when it first happened, Commandant Alexei actually gave me the means to turn it off, when I asked him to stop it. He wouldn't do it himself. [He made Raven take his life into his own hands, literally.]
Still... even though I agonized over it fer the longest time, I couldn't actually do it. Even then.
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[Mostly he's just stalling.]
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You don't want to keep living, the way you are.
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Well it sounds bad when ya put it like that.
[RAVEN IT IS BAD]
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It is bad, Raven.
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[Sometimes you want to be dead a little but also you don't want to die and also now you can't bc you have too many responsibilities.]
Back when it first happened, Commandant Alexei actually gave me the means to turn it off, when I asked him to stop it. He wouldn't do it himself. [He made Raven take his life into his own hands, literally.]
Still... even though I agonized over it fer the longest time, I couldn't actually do it. Even then.