[He's floating. It's the best thing he's ever felt. Something so pure, warm, and golden. Their landscape changes, buildings falling - or rising - from the sky. He doesn't recognize them. He won't spare a glance to them. Even as his eye opens, its deep violet is on this man, and this man alone.]
[A choir sounds in the distant, singing hymns. Even here, he's reminded of crossing the line. The steps he's taking are none he's ever taken before.]
[He pulls away, but only for a moment, to catch his breath. Golden sparkles are falling alongside the petals. His hands grasp the man's face, and he feels his breath is hot. He's lost. He's found.]
That's...you're so good.
[Another kiss while he's at it, feeling more and more weakness. He can't help itself. Temptation never looked and tasted so beautiful.]
[ Despite everything, it is a stark surprise feeling the intense attention upon his person. Anaxagoras feels himself become a bit lost in the beautiful violet color within that singular eye posed upon his person.
Him, just him - it conjures a little shiver through him. One of delight, even as the sound of choirs resound through even his soul. His own necessary intake of breath is sharp in the small break, and he is amazed for a moment - how bright Hansa looks when sprinkled with sparkles of gold. Like a sun's radiance, but not so searing that he would look away.
Instead, he wishes to subsume himself continuously - eye slipping almost closed again from the feel of those fingers against his now reddened face. ]
Hansa...
[ His words are swallowed up in another kiss; it isn't like he had any plans to say much. It even feels more all encompassing, and his fingers are now caught up in the man's shirt as he presses and sinks into the moment, return of the kiss easy as breathing.
As they rise, above the forest, it feels like a piece of a place beyond perfection. ]
[He's never kissed like this. Honestly, he doesn't even remember the last time he kissed at all. Likely years before he went through the transformation of his body. Now, as he is, he feels like he's set on fire. Anaxagoras seems like match to his rock, always willing to add to it.]
[His shirt is grabbed. Hansa's hands tuck more in his lower back. The golden sparkles almost make the man look somewhat divine. Makes sense. He is a demigod, with golden blood.]
[And here, he is but a humble man. The sky feels like a rotating wheel. Finally, he has to take a breath - and as he does so, he feels his body shaking. Like nervous energy, built up within him that needs an outlet.]
....Wow.
[Is all he can say before he takes a big breath, eyelid fluttering from his exertion.]
[ A humble man. But, to him who appears greater than any Titan or Aeon or any sort of higher being he has ever heard of.
The "platform" they are on halts when they are settled above the upside-down forest. Above them lay dots of light hanging like strange lights without any proper celestial body in sight. Roots of trees otherwise surround them.
But, his attention is fully on the man in front of him, his heart pounding, his heart racing like he had just ran a marathon. He feels sensations welled up within him that are more intense than he imagined. The earnest compliment making him let out a startled breath. ]
You...no one has said that to me before.
[ Anaxagoras is almost breathless, feeling like he might become weak enough to fall to his knees. Ridiculous. ]
Whenever I look at you, it's difficult to focus. Stunning to the point of incomprehensibility.
[ He swallows thickly, saying this, and feeling overwhelmed, but embarrassed, quickly steals another kiss. ]
[It seems so surprising. Surely there must have been one. Someone who also understood his beauty. It's a terrifying beauty. It's the type of thing that makes him want to shed reason like a second skin.]
[He can practically hear the man's heart in his ears - or is it his own? The compliment in return makes his face turn brilliant crimson. He is so used to giving. Not to receiving.]
[Attention. Compliments. Kisses.]
[The Professor kisses him again, like he's drowning and needs him to give him life. And he wouldn't ever abandon such a necessary duty. Hansa sighs, even as he's now sucking a little on his lower lip for added friction.]
[ There is still time for people to make their remarks in a certain manner - but compliments towards his person were rather rare before he arrived here. Even rarer still on his physical appearance.
So, he probably had a nod in there somewhere when the other man questioned it.
...It's also why even if he has an ear for ones that are not stated with any true sentiment, he can tell when they are true. Which has a habit of deeply reaching him just the same, engrained within him whenever he happened to hear of such words professed thoughtfully.
Much the same as the reaction he can get in return...the redness apparent and true on Hansa's face makes him even more brilliant. It kindles more within him, committing to memory what he can get when the other man receives in return. He desperately wants to give as much as he receives...such that he shivers again, feeling the pressure on his lower lip.
It encourages them to part, just a little, to turn his head - and deepen the kiss slightly as his hands move from the front of Hansa's shirt to grasp at his back, a touch more eager. All the while feeling like he has been granted more and more sips of an elixir that makes him feel more alive. ]
[He's being grasped now, pulled in - like the man is a black hole with him in tow. He has fought vampires and walking corpses. This man feels more powerful than that. More intense than that. He can't bring himself to stop.]
[Anaxagoras, never told how beautiful he is, has given him this sensation to sink into. Hansa sighs into the kiss - and he knows he has never kissed anyone like this before. This man has done something to him. A permanent stain.]
[He has to catch his breath eventually, though, and so he presses forehead against forehead, breath quick and hot. He has to get a handle on himself. He doesn't feel like he can.]
[His hands slide up and down the other's spine, lightly.]
Have you ever...kissed like that before? Should I be jealous?
[ Anaxagoras likes to believe that in a multitude of cases he is a very rational man, but he knows that ultimately he can't always be so; he is the type of individual who feels deeply. While at the same time, having ached and yearned for the pursuit of truth that for his eccentricities, he neglected his own self.
The bottomless chasm, that emptiness, the side of himself insatiable and wanting, always existed, ready to overpower reason. But, it felt like giving into that, into so many emotional currents, was as easy as breathing; even if it overflowed without warning.
Like an unrestrained tempest. He comes back into himself properly when the other male's head is pressed against his, his own breath heavy and quick, cheeks flushed red. He feels himself even relax into the touch...completely distracted.
He wants to steal another kiss...
...Oh.
He barely realizes Hansa asked him a question, clearing his throat. ]
...I've...hmm.
I can't remember the last time I kissed anyone. [ ... ] If ever.
The only person you'd therefore be jealous of would be someone like - or rather - simply yourself. Though, you would be ridiculous enough to manage that, wouldn't you?
[ He says that fondly despite his current state of being a bit dazed. That said, if he turns his head slightly, he thinks he can nuzzle Hansa's cheek like this... ]
[If ever, he says. Anaxagoras, never kissed. A Blasphemer, now in the arms of a priest, and this rite of passage has been claimed by him.]
[Hansa audibly swallows, trying to calm his restless heart. He wants to kiss him more. He wants to practice moderation. Greed is a sin, too. He always toes the line, but this is egregious, isn't it?]
[The man nuzzles against him, and he does the same in return after a short little pause.]
Haha. Maybe looking at this from the outside, I should be jealous of being able to have this from such a brilliant man.
[This feels so real. This feels like staring at the sun. He pecks the side of the man's cheek, before rubbing against it to simply sink into the sensation.]
[ If asked, Anaxagoras could never have stated anything like expressing love was ever a sin. Even if, that would essentially be such biased words and an ironic source from a Blasphemer, of all people. Because who is he to talk to a priest on such things? But, the audacity would be much like him.
Feeling the movement against him, he feels a surge of pleasant emotion, smirking slightly like a satisfied kitten.
...Yet, Hansa's words incite a laugh - soft, but contradictorily sharp, radiating loud through the area. When he speaks, though, his words are full of not only mirth, but absolute affection, warm satisfaction radiating through him like the embraces that have left them both comfortable in each other's space. ]
Now you sound even more ridiculous than usual. You know that, right?
[ But, he has often enjoyed that side of him. Hansa's ridiculousness, hell...Hansa's everything. What is there not to appreciate? To sink into? To love? It sends a joyful emotion that makes him feel alive. ]
...Even if I will not deny my intelligence. Never can.
[He is ridiculous. He always is. A frivolous soul who doesn't fit the mold of a priest to begin with. This is ridiculous, to encourage this. But he keeps hearing that beautiful sharp laugh, and it feels like butterfly wings sliding into his chest. A wound he is too ecstatic over.]
No, you're a smart cookie. [And he's pulling him up, twirling him in place.] My smart cookie.
[His.]
[And his expression is more bashful.]
...Can I call you mine? Am I allowed? I almost feel like my hand is in that smart cookie jar.
[He might be joking, but...there's a hint of wanting reassurance, too.]
[ It's ironic, considering that Anaxagoras has never truly gotten along with the devout, but perhaps that is why the both of them fit together despite their respective backgrounds - outliers, in each. Even if it should be that they're opposed, they fit more easily than the last piece to a puzzle - like a glove that's been awaiting for the warm hand that suits it all along. ]
Yours...
[ Anaxagoras feels ever more delight at the word - like the comfortable sensation of a spring breeze. Another loud, boisterous laugh escaping him all the same as he's pulled up, twirled around, eyes twinkling all the way. It's almost like he's flying.
He's dizzy, but with unreasonable, limitless elation, and it feels so freeing. ]
Yes, you may. Your hand has been caught in this 'smart cookie jar'. But there's no way I'm forcing it away.
I am yours, and you are mine.
[ Anaxagoras says this without a single bit of hesitation...with every fiber of his being. From how that tenderness seeps in, there is no doubt that he speaks it - the veritable truth in every sense of the word. ]
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[A choir sounds in the distant, singing hymns. Even here, he's reminded of crossing the line. The steps he's taking are none he's ever taken before.]
[He pulls away, but only for a moment, to catch his breath. Golden sparkles are falling alongside the petals. His hands grasp the man's face, and he feels his breath is hot. He's lost. He's found.]
That's...you're so good.
[Another kiss while he's at it, feeling more and more weakness. He can't help itself. Temptation never looked and tasted so beautiful.]
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Him, just him - it conjures a little shiver through him. One of delight, even as the sound of choirs resound through even his soul. His own necessary intake of breath is sharp in the small break, and he is amazed for a moment - how bright Hansa looks when sprinkled with sparkles of gold. Like a sun's radiance, but not so searing that he would look away.
Instead, he wishes to subsume himself continuously - eye slipping almost closed again from the feel of those fingers against his now reddened face. ]
Hansa...
[ His words are swallowed up in another kiss; it isn't like he had any plans to say much. It even feels more all encompassing, and his fingers are now caught up in the man's shirt as he presses and sinks into the moment, return of the kiss easy as breathing.
As they rise, above the forest, it feels like a piece of a place beyond perfection. ]
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[His shirt is grabbed. Hansa's hands tuck more in his lower back. The golden sparkles almost make the man look somewhat divine. Makes sense. He is a demigod, with golden blood.]
[And here, he is but a humble man. The sky feels like a rotating wheel. Finally, he has to take a breath - and as he does so, he feels his body shaking. Like nervous energy, built up within him that needs an outlet.]
....Wow.
[Is all he can say before he takes a big breath, eyelid fluttering from his exertion.]
You are so beautiful.
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The "platform" they are on halts when they are settled above the upside-down forest. Above them lay dots of light hanging like strange lights without any proper celestial body in sight. Roots of trees otherwise surround them.
But, his attention is fully on the man in front of him, his heart pounding, his heart racing like he had just ran a marathon. He feels sensations welled up within him that are more intense than he imagined. The earnest compliment making him let out a startled breath. ]
You...no one has said that to me before.
[ Anaxagoras is almost breathless, feeling like he might become weak enough to fall to his knees. Ridiculous. ]
Whenever I look at you, it's difficult to focus. Stunning to the point of incomprehensibility.
[ He swallows thickly, saying this, and feeling overwhelmed, but embarrassed, quickly steals another kiss. ]
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[It seems so surprising. Surely there must have been one. Someone who also understood his beauty. It's a terrifying beauty. It's the type of thing that makes him want to shed reason like a second skin.]
[He can practically hear the man's heart in his ears - or is it his own? The compliment in return makes his face turn brilliant crimson. He is so used to giving. Not to receiving.]
[Attention. Compliments. Kisses.]
[The Professor kisses him again, like he's drowning and needs him to give him life. And he wouldn't ever abandon such a necessary duty. Hansa sighs, even as he's now sucking a little on his lower lip for added friction.]
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So, he probably had a nod in there somewhere when the other man questioned it.
...It's also why even if he has an ear for ones that are not stated with any true sentiment, he can tell when they are true. Which has a habit of deeply reaching him just the same, engrained within him whenever he happened to hear of such words professed thoughtfully.
Much the same as the reaction he can get in return...the redness apparent and true on Hansa's face makes him even more brilliant. It kindles more within him, committing to memory what he can get when the other man receives in return. He desperately wants to give as much as he receives...such that he shivers again, feeling the pressure on his lower lip.
It encourages them to part, just a little, to turn his head - and deepen the kiss slightly as his hands move from the front of Hansa's shirt to grasp at his back, a touch more eager. All the while feeling like he has been granted more and more sips of an elixir that makes him feel more alive. ]
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[Anaxagoras, never told how beautiful he is, has given him this sensation to sink into. Hansa sighs into the kiss - and he knows he has never kissed anyone like this before. This man has done something to him. A permanent stain.]
[He has to catch his breath eventually, though, and so he presses forehead against forehead, breath quick and hot. He has to get a handle on himself. He doesn't feel like he can.]
[His hands slide up and down the other's spine, lightly.]
Have you ever...kissed like that before? Should I be jealous?
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The bottomless chasm, that emptiness, the side of himself insatiable and wanting, always existed, ready to overpower reason. But, it felt like giving into that, into so many emotional currents, was as easy as breathing; even if it overflowed without warning.
Like an unrestrained tempest. He comes back into himself properly when the other male's head is pressed against his, his own breath heavy and quick, cheeks flushed red. He feels himself even relax into the touch...completely distracted.
He wants to steal another kiss...
...Oh.
He barely realizes Hansa asked him a question, clearing his throat. ]
...I've...hmm.
I can't remember the last time I kissed anyone. [ ... ] If ever.
The only person you'd therefore be jealous of would be someone like - or rather - simply yourself. Though, you would be ridiculous enough to manage that, wouldn't you?
[ He says that fondly despite his current state of being a bit dazed. That said, if he turns his head slightly, he thinks he can nuzzle Hansa's cheek like this... ]
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[Hansa audibly swallows, trying to calm his restless heart. He wants to kiss him more. He wants to practice moderation. Greed is a sin, too. He always toes the line, but this is egregious, isn't it?]
[The man nuzzles against him, and he does the same in return after a short little pause.]
Haha. Maybe looking at this from the outside, I should be jealous of being able to have this from such a brilliant man.
[This feels so real. This feels like staring at the sun. He pecks the side of the man's cheek, before rubbing against it to simply sink into the sensation.]
[What has this man done with him?]
[Love, probably.]
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Feeling the movement against him, he feels a surge of pleasant emotion, smirking slightly like a satisfied kitten.
...Yet, Hansa's words incite a laugh - soft, but contradictorily sharp, radiating loud through the area. When he speaks, though, his words are full of not only mirth, but absolute affection, warm satisfaction radiating through him like the embraces that have left them both comfortable in each other's space. ]
Now you sound even more ridiculous than usual. You know that, right?
[ But, he has often enjoyed that side of him. Hansa's ridiculousness, hell...Hansa's everything. What is there not to appreciate? To sink into? To love? It sends a joyful emotion that makes him feel alive. ]
...Even if I will not deny my intelligence. Never can.
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[He is ridiculous. He always is. A frivolous soul who doesn't fit the mold of a priest to begin with. This is ridiculous, to encourage this. But he keeps hearing that beautiful sharp laugh, and it feels like butterfly wings sliding into his chest. A wound he is too ecstatic over.]
No, you're a smart cookie. [And he's pulling him up, twirling him in place.] My smart cookie.
[His.]
[And his expression is more bashful.]
...Can I call you mine? Am I allowed? I almost feel like my hand is in that smart cookie jar.
[He might be joking, but...there's a hint of wanting reassurance, too.]
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Yours...
[ Anaxagoras feels ever more delight at the word - like the comfortable sensation of a spring breeze. Another loud, boisterous laugh escaping him all the same as he's pulled up, twirled around, eyes twinkling all the way. It's almost like he's flying.
He's dizzy, but with unreasonable, limitless elation, and it feels so freeing. ]
Yes, you may. Your hand has been caught in this 'smart cookie jar'. But there's no way I'm forcing it away.
I am yours, and you are mine.
[ Anaxagoras says this without a single bit of hesitation...with every fiber of his being. From how that tenderness seeps in, there is no doubt that he speaks it - the veritable truth in every sense of the word. ]