Too much time and responsibility that I don't have.
[...Nobody wants to die, of course.]
In this place...I've had to question a lot about right and wrong. For example, hunting down Fiora...I hate it. She didn't deserve to die. But in this damn place, where we're forced to play by rules to save everyone...
[He falls silent.]
I don't know. I guess, in the end, I'm just happy you're here.
[ Jeanne is quick to agree. She believes that wholeheartedly, but that doesn't change her choice or what she did. She won't excuse it. She won't make it anything other than what it is.
She's silent for a moment. ]
I'm thankful and appreciate that people are glad I'm still alive. It— It's not really something I expect. You know as well as I do that Servants aren't meant to stay long.
...Again with that. You know, getting to know you and Chiron...I've found I disagree with that. Sure, are you made to exist only for a Grail War? Yes. But what you experience, what you feel, what you do...that's more than a simple tool can do.
[Its his sincere feeling. Sure, he had his preconceptions of Servants before he came here. But now...]
You have worth in this existence, Jeanne. I'm sure of that.
[ It's sweet. Jeanne's self-worth isn't necessarily that low; it's segmented and wrapped. It's hard to discern when she's more about what she must do and less what she is.
Her smile is small but soft. ]
I don't think my existence is worthless, but thank you for thinking so highly of me— of us. I don't think I exist in a void. I care for others, and I know others do care for me, but...
I suppose I'm too used to standing apart from others even for as much as I love them.
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[He gestures down at the wolf standing next to him that I totally did not forget about until now.]
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She smiles at the wolf friend. ]
You could stand to have a few more.
[ Jeanne endorses everyone to become like a Disney princess, maybe. ]
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[He shakes his head.]
Anyways... [And his expression sombers slightly.] I'm glad you're back in the world of the living.
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[ She doesn't seem to think so when she wanted to be able to keep a dino the moment they started that mini event. ]
Thank you, Hansa. [ Her smile is smaller than it was, but it's not insincere. ] I think I am, too. I didn't necessarily want to die, but...
[ She is guilty. ]
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[...Nobody wants to die, of course.]
In this place...I've had to question a lot about right and wrong. For example, hunting down Fiora...I hate it. She didn't deserve to die. But in this damn place, where we're forced to play by rules to save everyone...
[He falls silent.]
I don't know. I guess, in the end, I'm just happy you're here.
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[ Jeanne is quick to agree. She believes that wholeheartedly, but that doesn't change her choice or what she did. She won't excuse it. She won't make it anything other than what it is.
She's silent for a moment. ]
I'm thankful and appreciate that people are glad I'm still alive. It— It's not really something I expect. You know as well as I do that Servants aren't meant to stay long.
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[Its his sincere feeling. Sure, he had his preconceptions of Servants before he came here. But now...]
You have worth in this existence, Jeanne. I'm sure of that.
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Her smile is small but soft. ]
I don't think my existence is worthless, but thank you for thinking so highly of me— of us. I don't think I exist in a void. I care for others, and I know others do care for me, but...
I suppose I'm too used to standing apart from others even for as much as I love them.